11.09 : helplessness
Last night, while I rode home on my bicycle in the wet, I encountered a girl cryiiiiiiiiiiiing hysterically into her cel phone.
She stumbled across the street, still sobbing, kinda like a child. I passed her and she began to scream. I couldn’t hear what she said, but I got a bad feeling about it. An ending relationship, a catastrophic end.
And I remembered a lot of the strange social situations I’ve put myself in, at the catastrophic endings of former relationships. Breaking down in a sushi restaurant. Lying naked on chilly tile. Watching him get off the bus.
I was very, very sad for her. Her world was cracking under the power of her reaction.
Later on, me and my roommate talked about how some of the women she knows live off of men, and I got a similar feeling.
May I never be that kind of helpless again!
(on a personal note today : well. this is all pretty personal.)
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